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Feb 27

My Crossroad

Posted on Thursday, February 27, 2014 in Uncategorized

AWhen I am teaching people how to teach the Bible I have had a consistent message: “Pray, pray, pray, and, while maintaining healthy boundaries, teach what God is teaching you.

When you have the choice, teach what God has taught you recently or is teaching you now. It’s fresh.

Since you are teaching what you are learning it will come from you to your audience from the perspective of a learner.

This is important to me because I have fallen into the trap of feeling like I needed to appear to be “the expert” more than I’d like to admit.

Yesterday I shared a key crossroad in my life. In many ways, it helped catalyze some life-transformation I’ve experienced. In case you missed it, it’s here.

Today, I’d like to share something that is fresh, very fresh.

My Crossroad

As I was about to type this next sentence I choked back tears again. It’s been almost three years since my old boss moved out of his office. Twenty years together passed very quickly.

After two months of deliberation I decided to move my office into the space he occupied from 1991-2011.

“I’m unworthy.” I said twice this week. Once with tears in my eyes.

Oh, yes, I understand that I, like everyone else, am lovable, capable and worthwhile.  On the other hand, I have what some people call, “identity issues.” As smart as I like to think I am, there are lies that I have believed that can unravel my thinking. There are fears I embrace that are (insert sinister laughter) “near and dear” to my heart. Those lies plot against me:
– They remind me what a loser I’ve been.
– They remind me that I’m not as gifted and talented as others.
– They remind me that I have “settled” far too often.

Those lies plot a powerful coop in the back of my mind.
Those lies sit down together and script my demise.

“You’re unworthy”, they scream.
“I’m unworthy”, I repeat.

Our Crossroad

In the midst of those pains I, like you, am not alone.

God inspired an ancient song-writer to sing:
You keep track of all my sorrows.
You have collected all my tears in your bottle.
You have recorded each one in your book.
My enemies will retreat when I call to you for help.
This I know: God is on my side!” 1

My enemy is my lies.
My enemy is my fears.
My enemy is … me, when I let them take control.

I needed help. My “new boss” and I get along very well. I’ve asked him to meet with me and to “pray over me as I finish the last step of grieving and move into my new office.”

Your Crossroad

When the enemy attacks you with self-doubt, with lies about your value, your talents, your abilities, your likeability, and your place in God’s kingdom keep calling out to God for help.

Mysilentscream: “This I know: God is on YOUR side!

1 – Psalm 56:8-9, NLT

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Bring on the comments

  1. I have tears flowing too…or as I prefer to say…my eyes are leaking. I will pray for you too, what a humbling message. Thank you for sharing.

  2. And, as always, thank you for reading, commenting and for your support!
    Our BP TreeHouse were at Earle Brown.
    I was able to tell the story of your (and Aaron’s) beautiful day there. =)

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