Posted on Friday, January 24, 2014 in Uncategorized
If you asked me if I struggled with anxiety, most days I would say “no.” If you asked me if I was listening to myself enough to know, I’d probably shrug my shoulders. Usually self-reflection takes a back-seat to busyness.
The Burden & Blessing of Busyness
On Wednesday TreeHouse (my employer) committed a day to “fasting and prayer.” My busyness was set aside. 1
My tendency to be a busyness-burdened workaholic comes from a mashup of my strengths and my fears. According to “Strengths Finder” my strengths (#2-5) include Activator, Learner, Ideation, and Achiever. I like to learn, think through what I’ve learned and put what I’m learning to use, but the fear of rejection cries out “You’re stupid and lazy”; it’s subtle, but it’s relentless.
The voice of Anxiety – “You’re stupid and lazy” – can be covered up by my busyness like bandage I put on to cover up my fears.
Rob Bell asks us, “Have you spent the same amount of time worrying and talking about your difficult, confusing situations as you have spent in silence, listening to what God might have to say?” 2
No, I haven’t.
Wednesday I read an entry in Sarah Young’s book Jesus Calling. Sarah writes “from Jesus’ point of view.” See if you can see how it speaks to my anxiety (or yours).
“Strive to trust me (Jesus) in more and more areas of your life. Anything that tends to make you anxious is a growth opportunity. Instead of running away from these challenges, embrace them, eager to gain all the blessings I have hidden in the difficulties.
If you believe that I am sovereign over every aspect of your life, it is possible to trust Me in all situations.
Don’t waste energy regretting the way things are or thinking about what might have been. Start at the present moment — accepting things exactly as they are — and search for My way in the midst of those circumstances.“
Sound like a message I need to embrace? How about you?
The writer of Proverbs adds, “With all your heart you must trust the Lord and not your own judgment. Always let him lead you, and he will clear the road for you to follow.” 3
From Rob, Sarah and the writer here are four answers to Anxiety’s voice.
4 Answers 2 Anxiety
1. “Trust is a verb. I can choose to trust.”
2. “I can choose to trust God (who’s invisible) and trust myself (who’s been unreliable).”
3. “Anxiety, you’re wasted energy and wasted time. I can trust in that too.”
4. “I can trust that God cares about what I care about and has answers I don’t have.”
I’m gonna trust and say those, and pray mysilentscream, “God, please help me…”
Can you trust that those 4 Answers 2 Anxiety can work 4 U 2?
1 – Confession: Okay, truth be told – I was “busy” praying – so I still had some semi-delusional workaholic satisfaction of praying for many people about many things.
2 – From the NOOMA video #005 “Noise” currently here on youtube.com.
3 – Proverbs 3:5-6, CEV